Grieving.

Losing people you love is never an easy reality to cope with. This week we lost a very special woman in our lives. It all started Tuesday after a busy day at school filled with generous coworker's gift at our last Baby Shower. I came home to a delicious dinner made by Matt and as we shared our day- everything felt right in the world.

However that evening his dad called to tell us Grandma Blevins had died, unexpectedly. Shock and disbelief are the only ways to describe how we both felt as tears crashed on our faces. Matt's grandma. Gone. Just like that. So as we sat there holding one another- we cried. We cried for the pain his mom felt as she witnessed it. We cried for holidays we wouldn't spend together. We cried knowing she and Grandpa would never meet their precious great-grandchild of ours. We cried for anger to have her taken away. We cried because we couldn't understand how. We cried.

Death is inevitable. It's my biggest fear- and most of the time it makes no sense. It's such an abstract, raw emotion that each of us deals with so differently. 4 days later I still find myself tearing in up the car thinking about the amazing woman who I am blessed to have known. From the moment I met Grandma Blevins, she radiated love, support, and the most amazing sense of humor. Last night we lost this beautiful woman who filled our lives each and every visit (no matter how long she "let" us stay- ha!) Matt always spoke about his Grandma with such compassion and enthusiasm- I felt honored to be embraced by her each visit. Grandma knew just what stories to tell (usually about Matt's childhood energy!), questions to ask, and how to fill an evening with good company and cocktails. Our hearts break, but there's peace knowing you're with Grandpa now. You will be missed more than you know. We love you Grandma. Cheers to crossword puzzles, morning coffee, and evening cocktails in Heaven together with Grandpa.

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